Puerto Rican blurbs on every day life.
January 25, 2012 by Debbie
and what I am doing in reaction to the wrongness:
- I have had the worst cold since my senior year of high school, when I’m pretty sure I had the flu. Consequently, I am drinking lots of fluids, eating nothing but chicken soup and crackers (with the exception of today, in which I went to Zaxby’s), and not taking the medicine Health Services tells me to take because using steroids to reduce inflammation in a sore throat is like using a flame thrower to kill ants.
- My voice has been gradually leaving me since yesterday. Today, it was completely gone until about 5:00 in the afternoon. However, I am flirting with cute girls anyway.
- My anxiety has been ridiculously high. I am probably going to start anti-anxiety medications soon because this shit is just ridiculous. I am trying not to Google every physical symptom I have, because the anxiety combined with my cold are making all kinds of symptoms happen and I am trying to not let Google tell me I have cancer of the torso. I am meditating more and trying more deep breathing exercises.
- I have to go back to Health Services in a week because when I went last Thursday, my anxiety was so high / I was so nervous that I had high blood pressure (140/90, where the preferred BP is 120/80) and the doctor wanted to make sure I don’t actually have hypertension. Consequently, I am crying in my therapist’s office about how I now have fatal heart disease and will have to take medicine for the rest of my life. He is telling me that is the first time in a year that I have ever cried in his office (the last time being when I was dealing with the breakup). He is also telling me that it’s my anxiety and not hypertension and to calm the fuck down the next time I have to go to the doctor’s office.
- All of the various illnesses that have befallen me (re:cold, anxiety) have made me fall behind in classwork, a mere two weeks into classes. To solve the problem,
I am typing this blog post instead of studying I am managing my time as best as I can.
This is where I have been, readers.
I will return when I have my shit together.
- Debbie
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January 3, 2012 by Debbie
It is now 2012. Everyone’s talking about changes, and since I pay $42 every six months to keep this blog up, I’ll be damned if I’m not gonna talk about changes, too. … but not in the way that you think. No, readers, prepare to peek into my soul. #deepthoughts
I’ll be the first to admit that sometimes I am afraid of change. I don’t like to travel and I don’t like to try new things. Chalk some of it up to my anxiety disorder (I don’t like being far away from people who could help me if something went wrong; I don’t want to find out I have some terrible allergy to some foreign food), but chalk most of it up to my sometimes melancholy, homebody-type personality.
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December 19, 2011 by Debbie
“You do too much worrying: About this place; about your dad; about me.”
“You’re the only thing I like to worry about.”
- Legion
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December 13, 2011 by Debbie
One of the fundamental debates in the Metaphysics branch of Philosophy (of which I am not particularly fond) is that of appearance versus reality. Questions posed by…
- Bertrand Russell: How can I know that what I am seeing is really real? Further, which table is real – the table that I see when I am standing in front of it or beside it (i.e. from which perspective), or the table that I see in my mind’s eye? What about the hills and slopes under the microscope?
- Martin Heidegger: Why are there beings at all instead of nothing?
- Rene Descartes/David Hume: How can I be certain that I am not dreaming and “tomorrow” I will wake up and repeat the day?
Don’t worry, this is not going to turn into a post about Metaphysics. Like I said, I hate Metaphysics and cannot be bothered to read much more into it than you have just been exposed to. That was just supposed to be a “hook” paragraph to confuse you and persuade you to read more. See? I learned something in this bullshit writing class.
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December 11, 2011 by Debbie
“If you were to press your heart close up against somebody else’s heart eventually your hearts will start beating at the same time. And two little babies in an incubator, their hearts will beat at the same time. Love that. So if you have somebody in your life that is prone to anxiety, like myself, and if you happen to be a calm person, you could come up and hug me heart to heart and my heart hopefully would slow to yours. And I just love that idea. Or maybe yours would speed up to mine. But either way, we’ll be there together.”
- Andrea Gibson
Someone get me out of this terrible mood.
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